Ava

I always thought adults do
everything for a child. Its because
of you I now know what a child
does for us.

A teenager myself when your
older cousins were born
I loved them, played with them
and was crazy about them.

You were born years later.
I'm older now and I guess
its because now I understand
the delicacy of life.

You have brought more joy
and happiness then I could
ever tell you. I thank God
for you everyday.

There is no better sound than
waking up in the morning and
hearing your giggling in the
next room.

When Gram was sick I always
wanted to cry. It was you that
made me laugh and realize life
must go on.

Your smart, talented and so
pretty. Your fun and funny
and wonderful. Thank you for
letting me be your Aunt.

Remembering

I remember the happiness
I remember the sadness
I remember the life
I remember the death
I remember the faith
I remember the doubt
I remember the excitement
I remember the boredom
I remember the black and white
I remember the shades of grey
I remember the innocence
I remember the corruption
I remember the friends
I remember the enemies
I remember the warmth
I remember the coldness
I remember the laughter
I remember the crying
I remember the pleasure
I remember the pain
I remember the truth
I remember the lies
I remember dignity
I remember the self degradation
I remember the sounds
I remember the silience
I remember the love
I remember the hate
I remember the courage
I remember the fear
I remember the calm
I remember the storm
I remember the denial
I remember the acceptance
I remember the beauty
I remember the ugliness
I remember the light
I remember the darkness
I remember the aroma
I remember the stench
I remember the trust
I remember the betrayal
I remember the clarity
I remember the distortion
I remember the body & mind
I remember the soul
I remember the confidence
I remember the inadequency
I remember the brave
I remember the coward
I remember the ease
I remember the difficult
I remember the strength
I remember the weakness
I remember the surprise
I remember the predictable
I remember the deep
I remember the shallow
I remember the curiousity
I remember the contentment
I remember the fresh
I remember the stale
I remember the real
I remember the superficial
I remember the envy
I remember the jealousy
I remember the pure
I remember the tainted
I remember the whole
I remember the broken
I remember the polished
I remember the tarnished

At first sight !

It was the the summer of 96'. My friend and I were driving aimlessly around the neighborhood. We were in my grandmothers old silver cutlass ciera she had recently given to me. Those days we spent most of our time burning gas and blasting music. It happened when we were on our way back to my house for lunch. I saw him walk out of the convenience store on the corner. I had to stop the car...I couldn't move....I could barely breathe. He was tall with jet black hair and dark tanned skinned. He had on a fitted white Tshirt and Levis jeans. It was obvious his job was physical and something outdoors. He was lean and his arms were muscular. He lite a cigarette and took a few drags. He then got into a shiny buick regal and drove off toward the blaring sun of that August afternoon. I thought about him for weeks and gave up ever seeing him again. Until, that party that night. I walked in and there he was.

One Love :)

Its the Beautiful People
Its the White Sandy Beaches
Its the Sweetest Mangos
Its the Overproofed Rum
Its the Jerk Chicken and pork
Its the Water Falls
Its the views of the countryside
Its the Reggae Music
Its the Coconut Water
Its the hotels on the beach
Its the Blue mountain coffee
Its the dancing & nightlife
Its the Red Strip Beer

My 30's !!!

My twenties are over
My thirties half through
Now what the hell am I
going to do ?

Three chin hairs to pluck
Some spider veins to hide
Grey hairs to get dyed

No longer smoking
or a size 5 !
Gained 50 pounds to
put this addiction aside

Took my first mammogram,
at my doctors advice
Just wish that damn machine,
could have been more nice

With age comes wisdom
Now, I got that !
Hope I'll never fall into
another of lifes traps

Have to stop all this thinking,
but wait is that my biological
clock ticking ??

Despite all of this,
My life is not done
I have a feeling my forties ,
are going to be fun !