New York City

Your the best city is the
world, nowhere else can
ever compare.

People from all over the
world. No one seems to
care or stare.

You can be who you are,
it doesn't matter
what you wear.

They envy you and respect
you. They should all be
like you.

You're unique and
colorful and fascinating.
Thats the true beauty
right there.

Ralph

I understand what addiction must be like. When it came to you, I could never get enough and always wanted more. I liked you for so fucking long & for so many years. That day at work when you asked for my number, I couldn't say no. You knew I wasn't going to say no. You called a couple of days later & I meet you for drinks. You told me your marriage was over. I still can't believe how fucking stupid I was. I actually felt bad for you. I would talk to you for hours on the phone. I would drop everything to go and meet you. I really fucking believed in my mind that there was no man more perfect than you. Why the fuck did I have to be so attracted to you ? You were so damn good looking. You were tall and built and dark. After we slept together I knew there was no turning back. Your such a fucking prick. You knew how I felt about you. I wasted two years of my life. I wasn't feeling well and went to the doctor. I found out that I had an ectopic pregnancy. They removed one of my Fallopian tubes & I spent a week in the hospital. I know you felt bad and I know you did love me. The thing is though that your disgusting, pathetic and a poor excuse for a man. I lent you money and found out you started seeing other women. You slept with some bitch from our job and even got back together with your wife. I didn't quit my job for a better opportunity. I quit my job to get away from you and your fucking harem. You hurt me more than you will ever know. I stopped taking your calls because I couldn't put myself through this anymore. I beat myself up over this for years. I can't believe I allowed myself to get involved with you. All these years later I'm still afraid of getting into a relationship. I wish you knew the pain I've been through. I should have cursed your ass out. I love you because we almost had a child together, but I hate you for how much you hurt me. I moved on with my life & I know I deserve better. I heard you moved to the south. Your probably fucking everything with a pulse down there. I hope you get your shit together some day. Until then if I never see you again it will be to fucking soon.